Tuesday, July 09, 2013
Reflections on Motherhood (9 months in)
We've also had lots of cuddles, a tiny voice that hums along with me when I sing him to sleep, a sweet hand that caresses my cheek when I'm holding him close, a smile that lights up the entire world, an adventurous and inquisitive nature, an appetite for new flavors that cannot be satisfied, a laugh that is sweeter than the most beautiful piece of music, and a personality that continues to amaze me every single day. And intelligence! He works on something until he figures it out, and that spark in his eyes when he does... it's just priceless.
And I'm glad I waited. Although it would have been easier on my body to have a baby earlier, and probably would be a lot less stressful to think about having 2.0 if I were... say... 32 instead of 36 right now, I am so glad I waited. This baby, at this time in my life, is what I was meant to have. If 2.0 happens, he/she will also be meant to be in that time, but if not, I will be okay with it. I won't mourn if we are one and done. Because this one has filled my life with so much joy and happiness. Do we want another baby? Yes. We've always said we wanted two. Will we try for one? Yes, probably fairly soon. But until that happens, I plan to enjoy the heck out of my sweet boy, who is more than I ever could have imagined, and I love him more than I can ever express.